Slightly over two years have passed since I last posted anything. The question that is foremost in my mind, is this all there is? My answer is no there is more. We look to things, people and events to define our life and when we do not receive them we think," is this all there is?"
My life has not progressed on the loss of weight like I thought it would but my knee is fixed. My finances are not where I thought they would be at this time of life but all my bills save 2 small and my house are all paid for. My relationships with those around me are not where I thought they would be but this has made me look to the one who is my closest friend.
You see we all have those moments when we wonder what we should have done different and yes sometimes you have to do differently. But other times it is life in a fallen, sin filled world. BUT this world is not my home. The word tells me I am just a traveler passing through. The world tells me that God's heaven is my home. The world tells me that I am more than a conqueror in Christ who strengthens me.
I have so many deaths of loved ones in the past two years but they were ready and I will see them again. I have been called names, lied on, but as long as Jesus accepts me who are they. " I am mad," really? Of whom shall I fear. "You are hard hearted!" no just leaning on Jesus and not turning into a chicken little. I have been emotionally and verbally abused and yes it makes my heart sad, I am human after all BUT my comforter the Holy Spirit will heal the wounds you have inflicted in ignorance, meanness or because you need to deflect instead of dealing with your own feelings.
SO to answer my foremost question, " Is this all there is?" Maybe for the moment BUT I am waiting on God to move in my behalf and I WILL REST until He does.
